No Surprises

A heart that's full up like a landfill, 
a job that slowly kills you, 
bruises that won't heal. 
You look so tired-unhappy, 
bring down the government, 
they don't, they don't speak for us. 
I'll take a quiet life, 
a handshake of carbon monoxide, 

with no alarms and no surprises, 
no alarms and no surprises, 
no alarms and no surprises, 
Silence, silence. 

This is my final fit, 
my final bellyache

with no alarms and no surprises, 
no alarms and no surprises, 
no alarms and no surprises please. 

Such a pretty house 
and such a pretty garden. 

No alarms and no surprises (get me outta here), 
no alarms and no surprises (get me outta here), 
no alarms and no surprises, please. 


--- Radiohead

Tonight I wanna cry...

Alone in this house again tonight
I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me
The way that it was and could have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

Would it help if I turned a sad song on
"All By Myself" would sure hit me hard now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with this pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry



--- Keith Urban

Blue Beard...

I used to see the night so anxious, but now I know
The only thing it ever taught me was a grand illusion
That comes and goes, the city blanketed of snow.

What if we die, no end and no conclusion.
How could you smile, just walk away.
Well I don't know.
I don't know.

I met you at the railroad station, now years ago.
And something happened on the night I last drank with you in the neon glow.
Now I don't see you anymore.

The Midwestern sky, is gray and cold.
The sun never shines, but that's alright.
And I couldn't find the letters that you wrote me.
What did you write? Where'd you go, well I don't know. No.

Take a little time gonna roll the dice
Taken for a ride, any normal life will do, too.
Find another way, try to break the ice
Every day and night, the banana peels were true (?). True.


--- Band of Horses

Untitled...

I open my eyes
I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight

And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me 



--- Simple Plan

Happy Ending

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wastin'
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wastin'
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

A Little bit of love, little bit of love
Little bit of love, little bit of love

I feel as if I'm wastin'
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
To live the rest of our life,
But not together. 



--- MIKA

Any Other World....

In any other world
You could tell the difference
And let it all unfurl
Into broken remnants

Smile like you mean it
And let yourself let go

Cos it's all in the hands of a bitter, bitter man
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
Take a bow, play the part of a lonely lonely heart
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
To the world you thought you lived in

I tried to live alone
But lonely is so lonely, alone
So human as I am
I had to give up my defences

So I smiled and tried to mean it
To let myself let go

Cos it's all in the hands of a bitter, bitter man
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
Take a bow, play the part of a lonely lonely heart
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
To the world you thought you lived in

Cos it's all in the hands of a bitter, bitter man
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
Take a bow, play the part of a lonely lonely heart
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
To the world you thought you lived in

Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in [x2]
Say goodbye

In any other world
You could tell the difference

"I never ever, I forget my story.
My face is not sad, but sometimes, I am sad." 


--- MIKA

Mr. Lonely, I am...

Lonely, I'm Mr. Lonely,
I have nobody for my own.
I'm so lonely, I'm Mr. Lonely,
wish I had someone to call on the phone.

I'm a soldier, a lonely soldier,
Away from home through no wish of my own.
That's why I'm lonely, I'm Mr. Lonely,
I wish that I could go back home.

Letters, never a letter,
I get no letters in the mail.
I've been forgotten, yeah, forgotten,
Oh how I wonder how is it I failed.

I'm a soldier, a lonely soldier,
Away from home through no wish of my own.
That's why I'm lonely, I'm Mr. Lonely,
I wish that I could go back home 


--- Vinton Bobby

Everybody Hurts

When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone,
When you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on
Don't let yourself go, 'cause everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes

Sometimes everything is wrong. Now it's time to sing along
When your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on)
If you feel like letting go, (hold on)
When you think you've had too much of this life, well hang on

'Cause everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friends
Everybody hurts. Don't throw your hand. Oh, no. Don't throw your hand
If you feel like you're alone, no, no, no, you are not alone

If you're on your own in this life, the days and nights are long,
When you think you've had too much of this life to hang on

Well, everybody hurts sometimes,
Everybody cries. And everybody hurts sometimes
And everybody hurts sometimes. So, hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on
Everybody hurts. You are not alone 


---- R.E.M.

Living Years....

Every generation
Blames the one before
And all of their frustrations
Come beating on your door
I know that I'm a prisoner
To all my Father held so dear
I know that I'm a hostage
To all his hopes and fears
I just wish I could have told him in the living years

Crumpled bits of paper
Filled with imperfect thought
Stilted conversations
I'm afraid that's all we've got
You say you just don't see it
He says it's perfect sense
You just can't get agreement
In this present tense
We all talk a different language
Talking in defense

Say it loud, say it clear
You can listen as well as you hear
It's too late when we die
To admit we don't see eye to eye

So we open up a quarrel
Between the present and the past
We only sacrifice the future
It's the bitterness that lasts

So Don't yield to the fortunes
You sometimes see as fate
It may have a new perspective
On a different day
And if you don't give up, and don't give in
You may just be O.K.

Say it loud, say it clear
You can listen as well as you hear
It's too late when we die
To admit we don't see eye to eye

I wasn't there that morning
When my Father passed away
I didn't get to tell him
All the things I had to say
I think I caught his spirit
Later that same year
I'm sure I heard his echo
In my baby's new born tears
I just wish I could have told him in the living years

Say it loud, say it clear
You can listen as well as you hear
It's too late when we die
To admit we don't see eye to eye
 
Credit to Declan Galbraith

Tell Me Why???

This is probably the best lyrics from a very meaningful song.

In my dream children sing a song of love for every boy and girl
The sky is blue and fields are green and laughter is the language of the world
Then I wake and all I see is a world full of people in need

Tell me why does it have to be like this?
Tell me why is there something I have missed?
Tell me why cos I don't understand.
When so many need somebody we don't give a helping hand.
Tell me why?

Everyday I ask myself what will I have to do to be a man?
Do I have to stand and fight to prove to everybody who I am?
Is that what my life is for to waste in a world full of war?

Tell me why does it have to be like this?
Tell me why is there something I have missed?
Tell me why cos I don't understand.
When so many need somebody we don't give a helping hand.
Tell me why?

tell me why? tell me why?
tell me why? tell me why?
just tell me why, why, why?

Tell me why does it have to be like this?
Tell me why is there something I have missed?
Tell me why cos I don't understand.
When so many need somebody we don't give a helping hand.

Tell me why (why,why,does the tiger run)
Tell me why (why why do we shoot the gun)
Tell me why (why,why do we never learn)
Can someone tell us why we let the forest burn?

(why,why do we say we care)
Tell me why (why,why do we stand and stare)
Tell me why (why,why do the dolphins cry)
Can some one tell us why we let the ocean die ?

(why,why if we're all the same)
tell me why (why,why do we pass the blame)
tell me why (why,why does it never end)
can some one tell us why we cannot just be friends?

credited to Declan Galbraith.

A night with Banana Fritters

Creative Emergency Cooking is the term I used to explain the way I cook in my daily life. Let's call it C.E.K., a cooking style which is mostly based on limited ingredients and totally focused on taste rather than the look. 

I started enjoying cooking chemistry when I was in college, realizing the limited taste I can only find at the campus cafeteria. I fell into a learning how to cook autodidact, accidentally cooking to be more specific as terming my learning style. Always cook with whatever ingredients and tools I have, of course its probably based on budget wise as well. Since then, never in my life that I cook 100% based on the original recipe. 

I do believe that I still have lots of information to write here in order to describe more detail about my style of cooking. But, since I am still having my extreme lazy state, I don't feel I have enough motivation to exercise that in this blog right now. Anyway, tonight since I can't even close my eyes to sleep, I am gonna start writing on some of my C.E.K. creations in the kitchen.

Based on my thoroughly thought, Indonesian banana fritters will be the first recipe that I am going to describe here as part of my kitchen creations. I have always been craving for this particular snacks since I arrived in the U.S., it's a very tasty and light snacks that will go along with my study time. Though it's an easy-made snacks, never in my life want to try making it. Anyway, I finally able to make this food on my own by using these ingredients; riped bananas, all purpose flour, sugar, salt, water and oil for frying. These ingredients will be processed in this particular order. 

1. Smash the bananas in a bowl with any tools you have (I used a glass, lol)
2. Mix it with flour, sugar, pinch of salt and water (till a thick consistency)
3. Taste it, if it tastes sweet enough then it's ready to fry
4. Fry the mixed dough in a fry pan with a 1-2 inch oil.
5. Wait till it golden brown then pick and drain it with a paper towel.
6. Ready to serve

There you go!! It's an easy way to get a home-made snack for your study time. It's best served with a warm tea or coffee.

Letih

Hari ini kembali lagi aku terpaku. Kembali lagi aku menunduk lesu.

“Keikhlasan itu merupakan hal yang sulit diraih, bersyukurlah orang-orang yang telah berhasil meraihnya”

Sekali lagi terlintas kalimat itu dalam benakku, mengitari seluruh lekuk-lekuk otakku. Siapakah aku? Akan kemanakah diriku? Berapa lama perjalananku?

Hanya satu keinginan, segera datangkan teman sejati ke sisiku, bersamaku terbang ke angkasa, bersamaku menyelam hingga samudera, bersamaku membasuh muka dengan air suci yang mengalir di lintasan sungai nan abadi, bersama kekuatanku, bersama kelemahanku, bersama kejujuranku, bersama kecuranganku, bersama kebahagiaanku, bersama tawaku, bersama air mataku dan bersamaku dalam mengetuk pintu surga.

Ikhlaskah Aku??????

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Lelaki Bersayap Api

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Berulang kali sayap ini telah membakar, keras kuingin padamkan api ini, keras kuingin sejukkan sayap ini dengan butir-butir salju, yang menetes dari ujung jarimu, keras kuingin air matamu melenyapkan api di sayap ini, menumbuhkan sayap-sayap embun di sayapku. Yang kan menyejukkanmu, yang kan mengamankanmu. Tapi tak bisa.

Aku sadar aku seorang laki-laki bersayapkan api, laki-laki yang ingin pelukmu dengan sayap ini, yang ingin lindungi setiap jejak langkahmu dengan sayap ini, yang ingin hapus air mata mengalir di jernih matamu dengan sayap ini, yang ingin bawa kau terbang jauh dengan sayap ini. Tapi tak bisa.

Musnah semua butir saljumu di sayapku. Lenyap semua air matamu terbakar sayapku. Tapi kuingin lindungimu, tapi kuingin bawamu terbang dengan sayapku. Tak bisa. Tak bisa kubiarkan kau terbakar apiku.

Kau adalah kakiku, kau adalah tanganku, kau adalah kekuatanku, kau adalah kelemahanku. Timpangku tanpa dirimu. Tak sempurnaku tanpa kehadiranmu. Tapi kutak ingin kau terbakar apiku.

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